For the past two weeks I have been doing Priscilla Shirer’s new Bible study Breathe. Little did I know when I picked this bible study up, how much it was going to make me reflect on my life, the stuff in my life, and the things I needed to let go of in order to move further.
This study is really rocking my world right now. In yesterday’s Session 2 study, right in the middle of her session, she said something that just completely rocked me to my core. She said the following —
Are you capable of saying no, or is your flesh SO in control that you cannot let go of that thing that is holding you back.
Y’all that struck me and struck me hard. That is me. I have a hard time saying NO to a lot of stuff in my life. I think I have to have things a certain way. But in reality — all this excess in my life is snuffing out what I really want to do in life — and that is write and teach on the things that are near and dear to me.
God has called me to be a writer, an author to share with other women ways that they can be free from the bondage that we put on ourselves. I feel like He is even calling me higher than what I thought possible and it’s high time I get on the same wave length as Him and get going on this calling He has placed in my life.
In order to move forward, I have to let go of some things. It’s scary y’all. But I know, that I know, that I know that THIS is what I was meant for. My heart burns inside of me every time I sit and read a book from one of my favorite authors. I hear God whisper to me –“this could be you if you would just step out and let Me work.” I’m so ready.
So — it’s time for me to let go of trying to make this into a business, and get back to writing about the things I know and love. It’s time to start following some of my favorite faith bloggers again and stop following the cool bloggers who travel all over the world. It’s time to let go of that and refocus my dream onto the real dream that will make me feel more fulfilled in life.